Help...

I am gonna fall ... into a dark hole...a vicious cycle..

I am not used to get up early... I am not used to practice dance that much... I am not used to work that much for such a long period... I am not used to take this much pressure... I am not used to be single... I am not used to play this role...

And, I am not used to feel my immaturity... I know all those around me are suffering the same... But the bad feeling is gonna eat up my soul ~

I hate myself to be lazy! I hate myself to be naive! I hate myself to be idealistic! I hate myself to be immature!!!

Thanks for your encouragement
your parents and friends love you this much... so if u think you can, u can... dun pay too much attention to the results, u shall think like once u've tried your best, thats all u can do... even if u make minor mistakes, that's normal human beings
and this bear


But I am too mean to accept my own flaws...

I spent my rage and time in Thai Boxing / Gym...but my weight never reduces ~
I tried to voice out what I think it's risky... but there's no resource to address ~
I tried to work hard on my tasks and get it done nicely...and I got more other works to do ...

THOSE ARE NOT WHAT I WANTED ~ Can you just GIVE ME A BREAK!? I AM ENOUGH WITH THESE SHITS!!!